**5. Reflections**

Unsettling is a work in progress. It is a making and a remaking. It is about learning to be vulnerable and to listen. For me, it has also been an acceptance of my own experiences and a journey into forgiveness. This is a process that has felt painful at times. It has also been a process of learning to listen to the voices and stories of others. I have had to find my own voice, and had to learn to speak when the time for truth is in season. As Patsy Rodenburg reminds us: "More and more today we are in danger of losing our voices for the simple reason that we are losing our connection to oracy. Perhaps we need to conserve the traditions of oracy like we would a precious rainforest. Both transform the air we breathe into a capacity for words" [22] (p. 23). Beyond writing *Unsettling the settler,* performing and speaking this monologue aloud is an unearthing process, in which I engage in an experience of bodily affect (bringing hope into action); as the body and mind relax, the breath is deepened, and encounters with text in my mouth dance between the silences that resonate in my body and in the spaces I occupy. Sharing a monologue with an audience is both a gift and an act of vulnerability, a waiting for a response that might never come, an offering that you alone can give and which might not be accepted. Engaging with the TRC's calls to action, learning more about anti-oppressive language, and reading texts with unfamiliar cultural contexts are movements, and without movement there can be no restitution or redress.

**Funding:** The research discussed in relation to *Smallest circles first* has received funding from Fonds de recherche du Québec—Société et culture (FRQSC) for *Monologues d'enseignants: étudier les expériences d'enseignants en formation initiale du Québec envers des problématiques vécues par les autochtones* in 2015 and from the Social Science and Humanities Research Council (SSHRC) for *Mapping Drama and Theatre Strategies and the Impact of Play Building with In-service Teachers* in 2017.

**Institutional Review Board Statement:** The study was conducted in accordance with the Declaration of Helsinki, and the protocol was approved by the McGill Research Ethics Board Committee (SSHRC grant: protocol code #120-0817, approved on 16 August 2017 and FRQSC grant: protocol code #68-0715, approved on 31 August 2015).

**Conflicts of Interest:** The author declares no conflict of interest.
