My Pillow Is Filled with Tears… Syrian Refugees’ Journey to Australia: Narratives of Human Courage and Resilience
Abstract
:1. Introduction
The Focus of This Research
2. Materials and Methods
2.1. Method
2.2. Participants
2.3. Data Collection
2.4. Ethical Considerations
2.5. Data Analysis
3. Results
3.1. Challenges and Experiences of Multiple Displacements
“[L]ife was stable, and we were living with family, a wonderful life, and I was thinking of the future that I even bought a piece of land so I can create a house in a small farm in our village.” and for participant Alfred:“We still hold on to the memories and nostalgia for our country.”
3.2. The Conflict
“The mortar shells were constantly being fired at us, especially targeted towards schools, markets, and areas where large numbers of people gathered were hit the most. At that time…we were telling ourselves that it was impossible for the war to continue and that it would end, and the army would win until events developed dramatically to the point where, in fact, we felt that there was no safety, and the situation of the war was coming closer to us, and we were in very great danger.”
“Every morning, I send the kids to school (in Syria), and my heart wonders if this may be the last day that I will see them because a lot of my students and friends have died and lost their children have died in the market, on the street, at school, nowhere was safe.”
“We would hear every day that 50 people had died, 12 people had died. And I would say to myself, is it reasonable that we, one of these days, as a family, become one of these numbers mentioned in the news that 20 people were killed as a result of a mortar shelling? Is it possible that we are just a number, and my name is not mentioned or remembered? Life was very difficult.”
“We used to sleep on explosions and wake up with the explosions, the shooting; you would see that we were not comfortable at all, not psychologically nor…there was a level of fear that was not normal… They used to say we will kill you, and we will not leave you, so threats to scare us. And it did really happen. They went into the village, and I told you about how they kidnapped some of them, and after they kidnapped, we thought, that’s it.”
“a number of times we were subjected to incidents, like missiles hit over the top of us and our schools, and my father was kidnapped for a period… It was scary. We were even scared to walk in the street because we are scared someone will kidnap us or do something.”
“No one was well anymore, old and young, rich and poor. We went to Lebanon to escape death.”
“I will never forget how we lived through the five hours of the threat that the terrorists will enter our area. Last time, it was very difficult. Five hours passed, and I don’t count them as part of my life. This time, I decided that if it happened again and they attacked our home, I would blow myself up and my daughters before anyone assaulted us. Insecurity, the difficult economic situation, the feeling that you are in your own country threatened and with no security, and being vulnerable Christians, everyone telling us that we support the government made us feel that we do not live in our country and that we are hated by everyone.”
“We were going to another area; we were waiting for the bus to go. A missile hit the building that we were standing underneath… I will never forget that because we started running, it was very difficult, yes. It was not just about being scared; you are also upset because you can’t live your life like any normal person is living.”
“We thought that is it, the armed groups have come to us. When they say armed groups are going to come into your house, what do you imagine, your daughter? What do you imagine your son? What do you imagine? I swear to God that you are not scared for yourself.”
3.3. Transit
“We were not stable, not emotionally or psychologically, and not in our living there (Lebanon), we were always threatened as Syrians, that Syrians go back to your country and our country had no stability. There was a war, there were terrorist groups that we were threatened by, and so we could not return, so we were always living on the edge that the Lebanese would kick us out, and we would have to go back to our country.”
“The situation between the Lebanese and Syrians was not good. Because there were always lots of laws that were being passed that, the Syrian couldn’t leave the house after 5:00 pm. And so, you would see there were people hitting the Syrians just because the Syrians were in the street.”
“So that is why in Lebanon we were always in a state of fear because of the laws that were being passed by the Lebanese that the Syrians need to go back to their own country and the Syrians need to be deported. Things like that, we were always in a state of fear; there was no stability.”
“God willing, these countries will sympathise with us and see the suffering of the two peoples. Even the Syrian refugees in Lebanon, now they are trying to return them, and some of them do not want to return.”
“We slept on a piece of metal, the metal of our bed. There was no mattress on it, there were no things, there was nothing. We had been promised work, but the person who promised us work was a liar, and the money that we had ran out, and we didn’t have any food left or money or any work. So, we went through a degrading time.”
“I changed a number of jobs. One of them was in the sweet shop and cleaning, and one was doing the accounts for a pizza (manaish) shop because most of the work that I was going into there would be sexual harassment. So, from the owner of the house or the owner of the work. So, he would either want me to be his girlfriend so that he can help me in work and give me a good amount. I had to fight with him and then stop work, so approximately three times I worked and three times the same thing happened to me. So, I would then leave work, and I wouldn’t even take what was rightfully mine; I would still have money with that person, but I wouldn’t take it, and I would say, just leave the money for you; I don’t want it. And I would leave work because of that.”
“I worked with my daughter… we went and worked for someone in a laundry, washing clothes and that and folding clothes for hotels and things like that. We worked for two weeks, and it was very bad, and he didn’t give us any money… he wanted me to take a day off, and she (daughter) take a different day off. He would not let us take the same day off, so I said to him, I am here for them; I have come here for their sake. So, if anything happens to them, I will be regretful all my life, no… there was that fear… they think that with money they can buy whatever they want, but of course not.”
“The girls became depressed. They had no friends and did not know why they were there, what are they waiting for and whether Australia would grant us a visa or if we stayed in Erbil. And if we leave, it is another life. ‘How many times will we change our lives and change our homes?’, they would say.”
“We emerged from the suffering of the war in Syria and arrived in Erbil and lived the suffering of different people, language, restrictions, and lack of freedom. You are not free.”
“It is as if we have now become broken. It does not matter anymore from this house to that house because the first time you feel that it is very difficult, but then afterwards you feel that it is just normal. It is something that you have lost, that you have a house, you have privacy, something that’s yours, and you have that. Everything that you built up in 20 years has gone.”
3.4. Resettlement
“I was psychologically devastated, broken… the war and this psychological shock… I haven’t overcome anything, it’s still all there. When I came to Australia, everything was still there… the sense of security that I was living in, so straight away, we became the opposite. There was no security, there was no stability, there was no social life. There were no friends; there was nothing like before.”
“The things that we went through are very difficult, and I came here (Australia), and I also need to remove all of these thoughts from my head, but I can’t remove them. I say to myself that I need to relax my thinking because we are very, very fatigued.”
“It is the anxiety… My husband has high blood pressure and started taking medication, and our psychological and mental health suffered, and we started having eczema. The stress, lack of sleep, and tension, and worry began to affect us psychologically and physically, and my hair began to fall out. I also lost a lot of weight, up to 10 or 15 kg.”
“My wife was a schoolteacher and was attacked. They attacked the school, and she faced an almost certain death, which affected her psychologically, and she became suffering from constant stress and constant fear. Extreme stress and fear in her everyday life until now. She had a lump here (pointing to the throat area) … it turned out that this lump was cancer, but in the early stages… Thank God, the surgery she had four and a half years ago was successful.”
“My mother passed away, and my sister, who was a year younger than me, also died, and she had no health issues… two years after her death, her twenty-year-old daughter also died. I went out into the street like a madman and said what a cruel life this is. A 20-year-old girl dies in mysterious circumstances from oppression, overthinking, and torment.”
“My daughters were the main motivation, and if it were not for them, I would have died and committed suicide.”Maryam
3.5. Connections
3.6. A Complex and Non-Linear Journey
“It is hard when you are 57, and you move like an oak tree from its land and put it in another land. It takes time to adjust.”
“How hard is it for you to leave your house, the house that you built, and you put all your effort into it, and you finished it, you worked hard, and just leave it for nothing. And then you sleep on a pillow that you do not know.”
“My tears are on my pillow every day; they would see me in another world, and I remain sad. Even though I would laugh and smile as a way to do something about my sadness, the truth is hard.”
“They talked a lot in front of me and threatened to kill me, but they said they had pity on me because I was a Christian; [but] your children will be killed.”
“I am a man who loves my country, and this is how I raised my children. I was impacted a lot; in the end, there was nothing I could do about the situation; this is reality.”
“We were destroyed. Your mind needs to comprehend this.”
3.7. Collectivist Versus Individualist Identity Persisted Across the Displacement Stages for the Participants
“All the terror I lived through, I lived through it with my sick sister, so it was difficult from both sides; for me, it was hard that my sister was sick and with me, and it was difficult because it was a war. So, I was very scared, and I was scared for my sister…… And then my siblings said to me you have to leave; you have to for the sake of your sister because she is sick, and so we left.”
“I struggled for six months between me and myself, asking myself ‘What have I done’ and because of the different culture and language here. Life here is completely different. Social life is non-existent in Australia. I had countless contacts from a distinguished society, all of whom were university professors, teachers, and principals. My life was full. I worked as an accountant in a hotel where delegations used to come. As well as my small community of family and friends. I’m a social guy, and I like to socialise, but I’m losing all of that here.”
“She wasn’t happy, she would say I don’t want to leave this home, this home is my father’s, and I don’t want to leave it… So now I still remember these words, and I get upset.”
“We hated ourselves because how difficult is it the first time you leave your house, how hard is that you feel, what have I done to myself? My daughter is in university; what have I done to myself? I would always keep thinking about this… It’s because you’re thinking about your child’s future, about your daughter’s future, you’re not comfortable.”
3.8. Stories of Hope and Resilience
“This is what makes me strong and enduring and not lose my balance and sanity. Maybe if I gave up and couldn’t bear it, I might become depressed… I thank God my optimism in life, my mentality, and my outlook prevented me from suffering from depression, even though I went through very difficult circumstances and a lot of fear, anxiety, and sadness, but thank God, my prayers, faith, caution, love for my children, and love for life made me get here.”
4. Discussion
5. Conclusions
Author Contributions
Funding
Institutional Review Board Statement
Informed Consent Statement
Data Availability Statement
Acknowledgments
Conflicts of Interest
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Participant | Home | Sociocultural Background/Education | Left Syria | Internally Displaced | Transit | Length of Stay in Transit | Arrival in Australia |
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Alina | Al Hasakah | Dental Assistant/Stay-at-home Parent High School Graduate | 2011 | No | Lebanon | 7+ years | 2018/2019 |
Alfred | Al Mishtai (Homs) | High School Principal/Accountant College Graduate | 2017 | Twice | Lebanon | 1 year | 2018 |
Maryam | Jaramana (Damascus) | Executive Legal Secretary College Graduate | 2017 | Multiple | Erbil | 2 years | December 2019 |
Mona | Al Hasakah | Carer Primary School | 2017 | 3 times | Lebanon | 1 year | December 2017 |
Yusra | Jaramana (Damascus) | Single University Student | 2017 | Multiple | Erbil | 2 years | December 2019 |
Zohra | Jaramana (Damascus) | Teacher College Graduate | 2014 | Multiple | Lebanon | 2 years | 2016 |
Maya | Al Mushrifah (Homs) | Accountant College Graduate | 2018 | Twice | Erbil | 1 year | 2019 |
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Qummouh, R.; Linnell, S.; Slewa-Younan, S.; Harris, S. My Pillow Is Filled with Tears… Syrian Refugees’ Journey to Australia: Narratives of Human Courage and Resilience. Int. J. Environ. Res. Public Health 2025, 22, 691. https://doi.org/10.3390/ijerph22050691
Qummouh R, Linnell S, Slewa-Younan S, Harris S. My Pillow Is Filled with Tears… Syrian Refugees’ Journey to Australia: Narratives of Human Courage and Resilience. International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health. 2025; 22(5):691. https://doi.org/10.3390/ijerph22050691
Chicago/Turabian StyleQummouh, Rosemary, Sheridan Linnell, Shameran Slewa-Younan, and Sera Harris. 2025. "My Pillow Is Filled with Tears… Syrian Refugees’ Journey to Australia: Narratives of Human Courage and Resilience" International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health 22, no. 5: 691. https://doi.org/10.3390/ijerph22050691
APA StyleQummouh, R., Linnell, S., Slewa-Younan, S., & Harris, S. (2025). My Pillow Is Filled with Tears… Syrian Refugees’ Journey to Australia: Narratives of Human Courage and Resilience. International Journal of Environmental Research and Public Health, 22(5), 691. https://doi.org/10.3390/ijerph22050691